Verna Olson | Survivor of Addiction
"Now, I love my life. I don’t regret the past, and I don’t worry about the future. I live in the now."
I always knew there were all kinds of things wrong with me. Even though I excelled at almost everything I did, I was very, very unhappy. I was the ultimate perfectionist, and I was constantly obsessing about what everyone else thought about me. I never confronted anybody because I was always trying to please others. I didn’t know how to live life at all.
I didn’t drink very much in high school and throughout my twenties, but whenever I did, I drank a lot. In my thirties I started drinking every single morning. I didn’t talk very much because I didn’t want anyone to know how much I was drinking. Those were the worst times of my life.
When I turned 50, God decided that this was enough. He gave me recovery. All of a sudden, I didn’t have to drink anymore. I didn’t have anything to do with that; it was all Him.
It has taken years to get me where I am now. My recovery has been very, very slow, but very, very good. Willing to go any lengths is my secret to recovery.
Now, I love my life. I don’t have to worry about the things I didn’t know all those years that I was drinking. I don’t regret the past, and I don’t worry about the future. I live in the now. I know that I’m completely powerless over people, places and things. I don’t want to be angry or resentful, because today could be my last day, and I don’t want to ruin it.
Face It TOGETHER Bemidji is such a wonderful program. I am so thankful be a part of it!